I can tell that you truly love your wife, but her body does not arouse you. You say that you feel turned on when a good male friend of yours is around at weekends.You say you never do 'anything' with him, sexually.Meetings alternate between venues in Kirkcaldy and Dunfermline.
This is a possible option open to you if you cannot fancy your wife enough to impregnate her in the usual way.
I wish I could do as you say and help you to make love to her - there is no magic formula for this, alas, as you just don't have the feelings.
Obviously you really like women, but this is not quite the same thing as being sexually attracted to them. And I'll come back to whom you should see for counselling in a moment. And I can see how desperately you want to avoid seeing yourself as homosexual.
And that is almost certainly the reason why you cannot make love to your wife. But you cannot - by using your will alone - turn yourself into something you're not.
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