After all this heavy conversation we decided to play some CS: GO together like we usually do but we ended up in bed together instead. We haven’t told anyone yet, but decided not to go out of our way to keep it a secret.Afterwards we talked some more and discussed the possibility of a relationship. The area we live in is reasonably tolerant and neither of our parents are anti-gay, which I am grateful for.Now, I’m not super duper concerned with slapping a label on my sexuality and calling it a day (thanks to you guys, I appreciate all the advice in that regard!
He said he feels like we know each other well enough that he wouldn’t feel like we were rushing in, and I agreed with him. I am worried about telling my sister, who has recently become a born-again christian and had a lot of horrible things to say about the supreme court ruling on FB.I’m also a little concerned about telling our other two friends, but I think after the initial shock wears off, they’ll come around.Afterwards we kissed, and then he awkwardly said that he should leave and went home. A lot of things clicked into place in my mind but I’m still confused about a lot of things.I don’t look at porn often but when I do it’s usually women, but I’ve never met a woman irl that I was actually attracted to.Feeling confused and don’t know where to go from here.
Some background for the situation: I’ve known my friend Danny, the friend in question, since we were 14.
We were part of a group of four guys and we all got along really well.
Him and his best friend and me and my best friend would all hang out together all the time after school and on weekends, play video games together and go on adventures, you know, just teenager stuff.
It’s funny, I didn’t really think of myself as coming onto him but I definitely made that statement hoping something would come of it…
Anyway I told him that first and foremost I valued our friendship and wanted to stay friends whatever happened between us. He asked me if I was okay with working out our feelings together (read: having sex until we figure out how we feel) and I told him yes.
One thing led to another and next thing I know he’s blowing me.